Before I Die I Want
I am not good at giving advice on this subject, but I know what it feels like to be living each day feeling absolutely worthless and thinking it would be better to leave the world. I also am a quiet person who seems normal/reasonably socially ept on the outside but inside I feel very empty. But a couple years back, when I was really starting to hit rock bottom, I had a 'breakthrough'. I say breakthrough but in reality it was the most inconsequential thing. I found joy in hobbies I never in a million years saw myself enjoying, and it has since become a big part of the way I spend my leisure time. These things haven't revolutionized the way I live life but it has given me reason to enjoy it, and I think there is a part of that you can find too. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I believe you too can find something (regardless of magnitude) that can help you enjoy life again, and odds are you'll stumble upon it on complete accident.
I Hate Myself I Want To Die Rentrer
Until then, try to enjoy the small things, (i.e. Listening to the birds chirping while on a walk, savor the taste of a good meal). Hang in there buddy, and best of luck.